Things I Think About

"Funny how the days go by invisibly
And faster than I realize the things I think about
Scared to find the calendar my enemy
And when I die so will the thousand things
I think about" - Toad The Wet Sprocket

I have found myself to be in a very contemplative and introspective mood lately.
I ponder things that I have done and try to figure out how they have molded me into who I am today. Sometimes I find success in this pursuit. Other times, I find myself shaking my head and still wondering. It's not that I will ever know why some things have occurred the way they have in my life, and it's not that I need to know. It's just that I find myself trying to place these seemingly random moments into the picture that is the puzzle of my life.

Some moments shine brighter in my memory, while others seem to have faded in clarity.
Perhaps some of my memories are being phased out subconsciously(a sort of mental asphyxiation?), while others are being promoted to the forefront (focus on the good while avoiding the bad?).

Whatever the case or cause may be, I find myself in thought with greater frequency these days. It's not necessarily a deep thought, but it is focussing on a thought regardless. I am not sure of the cause, or it's duration, but it is somewhat of a refreshing time.